Sweetness isn't Genuiness

Someone's being sweet to you doesn't mean they are genuine. Only their actions can show their genuiness. Not that their sweet behaviour towards you is bad. Its not bad that they are that way, but it's not the parameter to look for genuiness. Interaction with you stimulated some love in them, so they they talk that way. Which is good on one level. But only actions can show if they are genuine or not. Eyes can see can't they? Why did you then go blind? Eyes can tell lies can't they? Why did you overlook that? You believed in their explanations. When your perception was saying the other. It's only the mind that always want to live in a comfortable situation, so if it doesn't like the perception, tries to avoid it. who gives a fuck about the mind, that only enjoyment wanting machinery in you. But you saw didn't you, you knew didn't you, fuck the mind, you run this, you were told the truth by your eyes weren't you? why you messed up? what did you get in the end? Please God kill the desperation in me, I do not know how to.