sweet poison

I drown my cries in poison. I seek the simplest escape. I silence my sorrows by killing my body. I poison my organism to silence my persuasive feelings. I deteriorate my being in search of peace. I open my soul to find harmony. I carve my mind, pleading for eternal rest. Heart in hand, intermittent beats. Shortness of breath. Cold sweat. Headache. Constant fatigue. All my judgment surrenders to my end.