sweet 14.

14 is the age ur meant to find yourself and ur people. borderline of childhood and maturity, magic days with friends and messing around as much as u want becuase what can anyone say, ur only a child. the stark reality is it's nothing like the movies playing it out to be a comedy and found family trope. instead it's spending lunch alone in bathrooms to avoid peers who are to stuck up their own asses to see you as a person. it's being told by ur mother that you and hers personalities don't "match" and if you can't change then you sould stop seeing her, becuase she doesn't see the struggle and secrets you're hiding, she just sees herself in you and hates it but when u do leave she begs u to come back. it's relapsing in a school bathroom while skipping maths and praying for someone to come into ur life who will be there for u. its having a situationship with ur creepy teacher who's 43. it's having no friends. it opening up to a councillor then finding out why u shouldn't do that again. it's being alone. some people long to be 14 again, others long to forget it. no matter how old u grow u will always know ur roots.