Survive

I'm not afraid to die most days i welcome it I'm afraid to be a live every day I struggle to survive but I don't Punch that Card no matter how the days are hard I don't want my family to feel like me left and scarred so I push ahead knowing in my mind I'm being misled but the feeling inside I'm already dead so I lay here at night in this bed close my eyes and fall asleep seeing the memories i dread Thanking of all these words that were left unsaid wake up because a new day is here Surround myself in work in my career Just for a moment these memories disappear keep myself busy but in my mind I know its unclear the night is closer this I fear in the dark alone it feels severe Thanking of you leaves my eyes to Tear one day closer hoping the feeling will be over but I still go back to that October the moment we met we should have took it slower i should be used to this all my life people left me with out a care I should have kept my heart closer and been aware my heart is broken be on all repair the next time I will not love so esey this i declare you will have to Earn it so beware