Sunday

Why do I feel so empty? As if she is my parental figure. What a coincidence we drive past her. Suddenly I feel so content but after a few seconds, this feeling completely fades. She looked so beautiful, wearing a bag a new shade of cream pink. I wanted to get out the car and run back to find her, but no. The whole evening felt like a roller coaster of emotions. However now it just feels like we are constantly falling. Thoughts spiraling through my neurones, at their complete capacity. I wish we could hang out, maybe in another lifetime. I never thought I would have such an attachment but here we are. Everyday craving her appearance as she smiles and says hello that's enough for me to last another day. Time doesn't last forever, one day I won't see her again. That thought scares me, getting the best of me. Time flies so soon their will be no promises just her email. For now, I walk to class first, I sit down and have a conversation she fills something in my delicate heart that no-one can really do. No it's not love, its attachment. My mathematical brain working better than never before however mostly because this was to please her. I don't want to feel like this anymore it is triggering me to the fullest