Sudden Suicide (part 1)

As I sit in my room, I stare through the window, at the dark and mysterious, sky, memories of my past, running through my mind, all my regret and mistakes turn my mind dark, my mind itself starts to fall apart, I am letting the evil take over, I am letting it win, allowing bad thoughts to tear me apart within, I begin to suffer eternally, screaming inside in pain, I am emotionally going completely insane, blame and weakness begin to set in, I can't seem to resist, wishing that I didn't exist, over and over I think bad thoughts, in this dark room alone, frozen in a negative zone, a lot of bad memories flow through my mind, of ways that I could end my life, they continually flash inside my head, followed by future visions after I'm dead, I get out of bed and rush to find, any object that will erase my mind, thunder starts rolling, and lightning repeatedly lights up the room, the sounds from the storm, begin to fall into a tune, I continue searching, and the tears in my eyes start to glare, as I search endlessly in despair, as I am gathering objects, I find a rope, this should end me quickly I hope, I ignore my fears of death, as I set up my escape, no one can stop me, it's far too late,