STUCK

SOMETIMES I WONDER WHY I AM STILL HERE, WHEN I COULD RUN AWAY AND DISAPPEAR, BUT INSTEAD, I STAY, HURTING EVERY DAY IN PAIN, NOT MOVING FORWARD AND LIVING IN VAIN, I KEEP LOOKING FORWARD TO A BETTER FUTURE, BUT STILL LIVE IN MY PAST, WATCHING LIFE FLY BY ME, EXTREMELY FAST, MY PAST NEVER STOPS HAUNTING ME, IT HAS RUINED MY TODAY, WISHING, THAT IT WOULD JUST GO AWAY, I CONTINUE TO PUT MYSELF IN DIFFICULT SITUATIONS,  LIVING LIFE HARDER THAN IT SHOULD BE, PAST TRAUMA, IS KILLING ME, BUT I CAN NOT RUN AWAY, MY KIDS NEED ME HERE, THEY ARE MY HEART, I CAN NOT DISAPPEAR, I WANT TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER SO THAT MY KIDS CAN STAY WITH ME, SO, WE CAN BE HAPPY TOGETHER, THE WAY IT IS SUPPOSED TO BE.