Stop Running

I don't want to run anymore, Running used to be fun but now it feels more like a chore, No parties and friends to drink to oblivion with, Actually friends is a word that feels more of a myth, I get high now all by myself, Ruining every last bit of my mental health, I read the Bible everyday, When I remember I pray, I enjoy reading what I do, I want someone to read the Bible with through and through, I know in order to find a real place to call home, I need to be picking up the phone, And calling around to find a nice Christian church that calls out to me, Then I can truly see, Where and what I have been missing my purpose in life, Towards this I Strive, I need this in order to stop running, I absolutely don't like the person I have been becoming, I need a divine intervention, And become one of Jesus's selections, Wouldn't that be awesome? To hear the call from God's Beloved Son?