still inlove with him

I've always wondered what it would be like if you came back to me like a ghost of our lost memory laying here in my bed thinking of all the what if's holding on tight to the hope that there still is not to be selfish but i wish i was her the one who lifts up his smile just by talking about her I've never thought of him as a bad person but made it seem like he was Laying here feeling conflicted, To a feeling I'm clearly addicted. The chances of winning are slim, 'Cause I'm still in love with him call me wierd but you were my love at first sight The kind of thing you only read about or write never thought of you as a friend but fell in love as soon as i saw your smile I guess my heart is living in denial i don't know what to do cause im still inlove with him Like a ghost I’m haunted by the shadow of us two