still I breath

Why do I feel paralyzed? I've been suffocating myself to try And not tell you how much of a Diamond You are to me. My aching heart can't keep this Anymore Hence I wanted to write you a letter A letter that would tell of this desire To look in your ocean eyes Of this more than benevolence I'm feeling Of this indefinable ill that pursues me Of this yearning to which i live In total surrender The last time I tried looking at your face, My heart missed a beat and knocked loudly against my ribs But I guess I had to face my fears and free myself