still alive

through the ups and downs the pain through days years maybe even months yet at a time not ever imagining this day this day if age not me definitely not the person in the mirror the fights filled with tears and blood crying like the world just ended or worse your heart just wants to end itself but here we are going putting one foot in the other even for a moment tell me this is this a miracle on my behalf a journey of self growth discovery even don't know but one things for sure is I'm still alive