Spiralling

I don't feel anything Though I want to cry My thoughts won't let me I really hate my mind I'm beginning to spiral I'm sending nonsense to my friends I'm sorry for doing that I just want this to end Therapy isn't till Tuesday I need that right now But will I tell her about this? I wouldn't know how I know when I sleep This will all go away But I can't right now My mind keeps me awake I just need to close my eyes And this will stop Maybe only for a bit But it's good enough