spiraling hate I hate me

I spiral each night ,,God I hate me I hate every part of me that doesn't have you I hate breathing I hate waking I hate having to be I hate each person who says I'll find someone new when I spiral I hate being in my own skin I hate myself for losing you and that I still exist I hate each place I'm at my house my work my friends I hate you made it easy for you to be missed when I spiral I hate and hurt and feel too much my mind cannot stop racing over our lost love I hate knowing I will no longer have your touch I hate looking up cursing stars daring to still shine above I hate me oh how I hate being me all the time the hurt follows wherever I go no matter where I try to put these feelings down in rhyme I hate it all I hate all of me I hate your not there I spiral I cannot stop crying I cannot stop thinking of you at all I hate that you and I stopped trying old words our pride and anger made us fall I hate it I hate me I hate it all