soultied

Soulties and jealousy Watching him anxiously check his phone to see if she sent him a message, just like he did to me. I know how she feels , and she's selfish too. Ruining her life with her husband and her daughter , but I ruined my future too , I guess I'm just jealous that he's slowly but surely moving on away from me. And it hurts , hurts like hell, he has me contemplating what we are and what we'll be. Will he even wait for me? It hurts watching him fall for someone else. He thinks I don't know and I don't know how to feel. Its fair I guess , we aren't in a relationship and I guess a cheater stays a cheater , but I am no better. I love and lust him , I love the idea of him yet I allow myself to lust. The end is near and I know I should change my ways , but I don't know how I'll find my feet without him , Soul tied.