Soulmate

What will tomorrow bring what I need or what I want? or what I deserve, my skeletons come to haunt. everything I touch, either dies or goes away everything I love, does not last is that the price I pay? Will years of suffering depression be my demise? can I be swallowed by the happiness in her eyes? nevertheless, I guess this is a dream when I awaken, how loud will I scream? is this my destiny? Is this my fate? Is there a woman to be my soulmate?