sorry to me

I'm sorry to you I know you're just a mirror but all I ask is if you could forgive me for hating myself and being negative I wanna take the word that hurt I wanna love from the start I guess you could guide me I have nobody walk in the empty street and feeling lonely I'm in the void and I can only stay separate by others and fall deep pain has no cure but wisdom is my power I live for more stuck alone in torture I grieve myself somewhere had no shelf for millions of people die every inch of time chasing power to reach freedom than reaching wisdom to have freedom what am I?