sorry, i lost my patience

ೋ❀❀ೋ═══ ❀ ═══ೋ❀❀ೋ I'm sorry, I'm sorry if I don't know how to love. I'm sorry if I wasn't perfect. I'm trying my best. I'm sorry, I'm sorry if I wasn't enough. I'm sorry if I wasn't good. I'm trying my best. I'm sorry, I'm sorry for apologising too much, I'm sorry if I'm mean. I'm trying my best. god forgive me. I lost my patience don't blame me! I just want all of this to stop. but what is the answer to make it stop? I don't know. I held a knife thinking 'bout something. but I can't do it. how about my loved ones? I can't leave them.. I guess I'll have to fight this painful battle, forever and ever. 𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘐 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘶𝘱.