Sorry

To whom who gave birth to me: Im sorry. Sorry for not living up to your expectations. Sorry, I USED to be something to be proud of. Yes, Something, that's what you see me as. Something you can deprive their hard earned money from. Something that you can show off in the most selfish way possible like a trophy. Something you can toss aside after your bored of it. After it stops shining like an expensive diamond. After that, You toss me aside, yes? Yes, you replace me with a sister who also wants to shine like a gem. I am not jealous of her but full of regret for you. You only care for the ones that can give you satisfaction instead of loving all of us for who we are. Sorry, I stopped being a trophy. Im sorry you can't see my struggle. Or maybe it's just that you dont care to see that I am at my lowest? I'm so sorry for not letting myself lose to your mind games any longer. Im sorry, Im human, and have emotions. Im sorry I was the mistake YOU chose to make. Sorry that even though I have nothing to do with anything, it's all my fault. Im sorry I dont trust you. Im sorry I told you I wanted to be respected and loved. Im sorry. I thought I deserved it. Im so fucking sorry for everything. So So Sorry