sorry

I'm sorry I cry so much and that I apologize for everything my emotions are something I was forced to shove down when I was little I feel bad when I cry even when it's not my fault im crying especially if it's not my fault my dad had "man cards" for me and my brother when we were little. they were to make sure we didn't grow up soft, and teach us that men don't cry, or whine or complain even though those are perfectly normal things for kids to do I'm not even a boy, my dad just used me to make my brother feel like less of a man when he had emotions idk where this is going anymore my dad called me a bitch today he's never called my brother that that hurts