something lost

I had it once, now it's gone Like a knot it's been undone Was once so tight, now so slack Happy times I wish I could have back I sit a home, and feel so lonely It'll be great if that was all, if only... Zombie on the outside, the living dead But so many questions floating around my head Confusions rains down, it pours Pandora's Box, I've opened the doors No sign of anyone who can help No sense of feelings or of myself Where I can find the answers Who am I? What am I? Am I a dream? Or am I the dreamer? Am I a thought? Or a complex computer, How do my thoughts start? What makes them end? What makes me do this? What makes me do that? I know I overanalyze, I can't help it Thinking and gazing into space, as I sit Why can't I accept the wisdom of those around Not letting myself accept the answers I've found I want to free myself from my mind And not just to pretend Everything's okay everything's fine I want to be NORMAL... When it's going to end....