something are addicted

I know it is bad for your body but I like spicy food it like I am addicted to it sometimes I got a sweet teeth I know that is bad to sometimes I want to try new things and can't myself I also like doing drugs like drinking wine or vaping but I don't want to stop the fun don't know nothing else to calm me down when I am mad or stressed sometimes it is hard use art to help me with stress or calm down sometimes I like to stress eat and sometimes I can't sleep I think about bad things I know there light beyond darkness but sometimes I don't feel it I want to stop myself but sometimes It is hard