Someone Else's Turn?

Oh lord why? Why can't it be someone else's turn? Why am I always the one who has to constantly feel my heart freeze and my soul burn? This darkness, pain, death and self-corruption creating endless whirlpools in my mind, For I feel that I am inevitably to become my own self destruction, Why must it always be my turn to hurt? Why can't I just watch someone else's heart freeze and soul burn? Even if it was just for a day? All horrible things flood my brain, And in my heart, they constantly churn.