Someone else wants

Yes, I'm not normal. I can see that. I know I lie. I don't mean to. I know I screw up. I don't mean to. I know I do things wrong at times. I never mean it. I know im addicted to stuff and all. But why is that so bad? Im not normal. I know I can see it. I dont accept it. I'm not going to be what others want. Why should I be someone someone else wants?