Somehow

Over the years , I would think that I would lose the tears that came along with the memory of you, But... Everytime I looked at him I saw you. So selfish as I was to keep him away, I felt like I was never going to just be okay. I ran and ran from the past. But I stopped and had to face it alast.. Answers were given the best that I could, and in the position that I stood.. So many years you missed! Can I tell you something serious? I felt a piece of me was lost, the anger, the hurt , the taunting that my thoughts would give, you ... you were in my memories and thoughts and in my heart that your image lived. I wanted to reach out, I wanted to forgive, I wanted to forget the pain, and wanted to be next to you and all I did was hid. To see you brought it all back those intense feelings , everything that I was concealing... Finally to the point that you sat across from me, my biggest fear was for him to notice that emotion was still very much here. His eyes made me feel weak, his touch made me feel like I could see him so different now. My body was on edge and my heart was dying from the closeness of his body . I could feel his soul grasp on to mine , as if this is the last time..