somehow

I'm still alive, I didn't want to die, but I'm still surprised, my aunt, who I leaved with for all my life, started saving for my funeral, I was just 12 at the time, and already chose the songs, I didn't want a funeral, I told her that, I much prefer if they'll just throw me in the sea, and think of something else, but I was supposed to die, I think, at least, the surprise on her face when I woke up, for me, it was like every day, for her, it was different, she lost me for an hour, but I was back, I should've left. I knew that when her eyes met mine, but somehow, I'm still alive