somehow

somehow! somehow! somehow, with my knees on the floor, my arms wrapped around me somehow somehow,in a lunareth episode,a pit of despair somehow somehow,too much of everything, never enough of anything somehow somehow,grew never being chosen so a little bit of kindness and I lent my whole heart untouched somehow somehow, loved you in a language you never learned to understand somehow somehow,wished to be one of your tears , never saw at what point I'd flow somehow somehow, hopped to be happy in my delusions, but dreams haunted more than reality somehow somehow, begged you not to be fluent in fabrications but introduce me to an energy you could maintain somehow somehow, it's been feeling like a one man cult and somehow, I want to close the book but I'm afraid of the dark