soft heart?

I'm weird my heart is weird I cry over small things and laugh over big things maybe it's the way I was raised getting yelled at for breaking a plate getting praised for hitting someone or none of that, no one really cared much I have a soft heart I love cuddles and soft kisses I like dancing in the rain I like petting stray animals but sometimes I don't have that soft heart sometimes I yell at people for small things or try to hurt others and myself it's weird I don't know what my heart wants I only know that it wants to be with you cuddle with you play fighting with you dancing in the rain with you petting stray animals with you cuddling with you hating people you hate with you it just wants to be with you as well as my brain and body I want to be with you I love you