sobriety

I'm sorry for the pain i put everyone through, God please let me be sane again I want to walk with you lord I don't want to do what i used to, let me be free no more drugs or alcohol i just want to be myself again I don't know who I am trying to be but that ain't me and I got myself back but alot of people are missing out of my circle and I got to stop blaming other people for all my mistakes, that ain't who I want to be man I'm running through hell and I don't know who I am anymore but I'm trying to get back to myself, I'm fighting with myself and taking it out on other people and who the fuck does that and I was crazy believing everything that I would hear that's the old me and I ain't going back to that shit I was playing myself and I'm smarter than this enough is enough of playing the games with myself and putting myself through the pain and everyone else to I'm sorry for the way i acted in the past and there's nothing I can say or do to change it but that's life I know it's fucked up that you ain't here no more and I got to move on and stop taking it out on other people because girl you've been gone a long time and I wasn't myself for a long time and I want to be myself again