Sober.

I've tried to decline the offers. But time, and time again, I cling on to it like it's my therapy. The pain of losing loved ones hurts. And the pain of losing a partner hurts also. And the pain that others cause you sucks too, but. Just remember that you shouldn't stuck to alcohol to ease the pain. You'll just cause more problems to solve. It hurts, I know. But you shouldn't resort to it. Now, obviously it won't take 2 seconds s to overcome grief. But make small goals, gradually increase it until to shut out alcohol entirely.