Smiling but Dieing

Fuck those feeling, feeling so down like I've been ground digging Walking amongst the living but barely really living Sad frowns all around they asking God to please keep giving, giving. Foreign to those good days, my bad days just keep tick ticking On my bad days in my head good days remain Right now. It's all I can focus, Cuz right now, I'm walking like I've done this Ask how, I just do like I run this My insanity for reality is honorably mistaken, Cliffs everywhere moms arms my only safe haven. Moma sorry I'm never there for u,u was always looking out the door Couldnt lend a hand cuz i always always dieing on the floor. Its my life with no life support, Feels rotten n the inside blowing out smoke Newports I'm walking wana talk but don't kno what u say, Instead im looking back both ways, I'm breathing when I'm hardly breathing I'm amongst the walking dead but I'll keep seeking. For purpose 4 better way for a healthy living