Smile

Everyone thinks I'm ok I walk into class with a smile on my face But as soon as I sit down it dissappears And then I start to overthink I sit there my leg bouncing up and down and up and down, it won't stop I start to bite my nails The room starts to spin Then next thing ik the bell rings I get up and put my smile back on Like nothing just happened Every class is the same Till I get to lunch I sit there with my so called friends My smile fades and I try to speak but nothing comes out After school I sit on my bed, trying to ignore the voices in my head I pick up my phone and text my friend "Hey um, I haven't been doing to well, mentally, can we talk" They reply " ur so funny, u were smiling all day, grow up, ur fine" I start to cry, just sitting there wondering why I'm not good enough wondering why no one likes me I take the case off my phone and grab the clean silver blade I sit there With the blade to my wrist my wrist feels cold, but warm at the same time I smile at the sight of the blood And ik this is the end.