Slightly optimistic

Sometimes it feels insane to be here, doesn't mean that I'll leave. Sometimes I'm overwhelmed by the fear, doesn't mean I'm not happy. My mind is insane and the people are vain, I can't explain all the shit in my brain. Even with all this, I'll be okay, I'll feel normal some day. Maybe I'm not cursed after all, maybe there's someone I can call, maybe someday I'll realize that I don't have to drown or fall. Things are getting better, I hope, I guess I can throw away the rope, hopefully soon, I'll find better ways to cope.