skinny

I wish I was skinny. Would people like me more if I was skinny like my friends? My friends were effortlessly skinny. They didn't have to do anything to be skinny. I started to not eat. It felt nice to not eat. I wasn't bloated or looked bigger than I already am. Although, I was exhasted, clumsy, and had no energy anymore. At one point I passed out. The nurse forced me to eat. I threw up in the bathroom after because I didn't want to be bloated or fat anymore. The boys at school called me fat. It made me insecure and vulnerable. They made abundant amounts of comments on how I looked or act. That made me three times more the amount of insecure than I already was. I just wish I was skinny.