Silent whispers

I find myself in tears tonight reflecting on my the past. Unlike then, there's no more light things can change so fast. The memories are all i've had the betrayal I cannot bear. I sit here, broken, shattered and sad I just no longer care. It always hurts to say 'goodbye' and you don't know who to trust Why is it that I just can't die? My entire life is a bust. They never said life would be fair a fact I have come to know. I was kind, I tried to care my life is just a show. I live for others, I live by force for death I cannot wait. only now my voice is now hoarse. I am the one they hate. Why is it that I get this hate when I only tried to care? My life a joke, I cannot wait to do the eternal stare...