Silent Tears

I have never cried out loud  Yes, tears ran down my cheeks and on to the pillow, soaking in wetness But i have never cried out loud for someone to hear me for them to look at me, worry and to ask me "what's the matter? Is something wrong?" You may ask, why i don't cry loud  And my answer to those questions will always be "I don't know, i don't know how to cry loud I don't know how to not hold back this cries it just happens just like that as if it had learned to not make noise and swallow it's every cries by itself"