Silent pain

Living trapped with my heart in jail, Walls unseen but feelings never fail, Happiness slowly fluttering away, Sadness creeping in every day, Chains unseen but weight heavy as steel, Each step forward a loop in the wheel, Inside this cage I choak and i weap, Dreams forgotten in a restless sleep, I cant ask for help, swallow my screams of Yelp, I stay quiet,never say a word, Hands on the clock never seem to turn, Words shattering my soul, Trying to fill an empty hole, Feeling dead inside, Tears dripping off my bedside, My arm red and sore, Knifes piecing through my core, Bullets of words shot my heart, Trying to hold it in before it all falls apart, I cant stop my head from thinking, My joyfulness rapidly shrinking, Is this my life? Will I let go of the knife?