Silent heart longing for heart

I never asked for love, I never asked for attention, I never asked for his hand. And yet, here I am, Wondering, what am I even expecting from him? Maybe, just maybe, I only wanted to care for him, To support him in every path he takes, To cheer for him, To see him rise high. Yet, I wonder— If I expected nothing, Why do I long for his text? Why do I ache to check on him every time? Why do I yearn to speak with him? Why am I so desperate for his reply? To be honest, I longed for just two words: "I mattered." At some point in your life, I wished I mattered. At some point, I wish I striked your mind At some point I wished you would support me At some point I wished you would cheer me And everytime I wished your presence How do I explain you , How do I explain you , how dark my world is How do I explain you , how lonely my days are How do I explain you , that I have got no one to turn to How do I explain you , How much your presence matteres to me