Silent Battle

Battling my inner demon again I think I won this time, but it's still crippling inside. It's getting harder and harder to keep it at bay. I kept thinking about how to end my life without anyone knowing. Living is only a waste of oxygen. Disappearing without a trace is easy. But what I can't deal with is how painful it would be for my mom. I think if my mom passes away, the demon will finally win. And I will finally get my "peace", my "freedom" and my "cure", in this cursed world. The image of me slicing my own throat still haunts me, and oh, how I envy her. Her image is her looking back at me with a smile on her face. A face I cannot forget An image of myself being released from this world.