Sick and tired

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired, I've tried and tried and tried some more. Searching for some answers, but don't know exactly what I'm looking for. Seems like I'm the last to win,no one I can call a friend. If I asked you for some help, best believe I'll never ask again. I'm sick and tired of depression, don't know why I'm second guessing. Begging God to stop this agony, cus I swear I've learned my lesson. I'm sick and tired of the lies, fake love and in disguise. If I did you dirty it was for a reason, and I don't apologize. In the belly of the beast, I had to suffer from defeat. But the price is yours to pay,when I start to stomp my feet. I'm sick and tired of the misconception, my life is in need of new direction. I see failure and pain, so I avoid the glimpse of my reflection. I'm sick and tired of being wrong,when I'm just tryna do what's right. I've been tryin to find a way to cope, but I'm looking for what's not in sight. I'm sick and tired of feeling broken and like nothing's getting better. Overthinking can be painful, life will destroy you if you let her. I feel so undesired,to the point I'm not inspired. I'm fed up with a lot of things, but mostly I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired