should've been me

I hate it when I see you with her I hate it when I see your cute videos with her I hate it that I backed down and let her win but she's my friend and I let her have you, now I have to smile when you are together is it wrong I still wish for u 2 to breakup is it wrong that I'm happy when you fight I remember when I saw you 2 living together I was sad, not because she didn't tell me but because my wish wouldn't come true. A bad friend, that's what you would call me, but what about you, the girl who not once but twice asked me to leave the man for her so what about me, I get it you'll be alright you'll be fine but what about ME!!! Even if you breakup how can I date my friend's ex. You're a book I'll never get to finish, chapters I'll never get to read, twists and turns I'll never get react to, an ending I'll never get to read. The few pages left me captivated but I guess not all books are meant to be read.