SHOULD I SURRENDER?

For years I've spent in life you're the one who brings me light yet, caused me the most of pains I'm lost between the rails it's sounds so confusing to me what a puzzle it seems to be Forgetting someone who gave you so much to remember I can't do it, maybe I should surrender Then I think to myself, was not I warned seeing and hearing from others, was enough to be burned I'd rather be alone believing what I was told It may be late, but I realized for as long as I live, and not paralyzed.