should I really change?

i hate the way I Walk around and the way I tryna stare. I hate the way I lose my mind even when no one's there. I hate the way ' me ' being called 'stupid' from the person i didn't share a time. i hate the way for myself being childish, and even worse when it makes me cry. i hate the way I overthink and the way I get insecure. And i hate the way I think " should I really change myself? " and the fact that it makes me sick until I get numb. So I stare in the mirror and think 'Am I really that dumb?' ~ phoenix.Z