shit

is this it ? this is my life and I feel like shit . something happened somthing bad or I did somthing wrong very wrong to deserve this confusion . I used to have hope I used to feel and know love but anymore it's bullshit . I do not understand the hate or the fake ass acts. I see no light for the future and I can't find anything I want to do that I like to do ..nothing to look forward to just more strife and crap. I know using drugs is not at all the solution but I might have considered it when things were different . it's all going to hell nice and slow. that's what I get for being born.