shifting

my entire life is shifting. Tilting to a new perspective. A sideways glance at happiness. Wondering if I could head straightforward or if I'll crash face first in the dirt, of my own actions. Will I ruin it if, I just run with it? Or will I just forget about being capable of a divine escape, from the hell that is... My self sabotage... Or is it my natural path? Atleast what's most likely of me on my best days. Scared to let all the good happen. I want to create a crash, before I'm connecting to the ground. How did this happen? With skinned knees, elbows, and chipped teeth. Tears stream and streak. Just take the pain, before I have the chance, to.... I guess, not let you save me... Because the shift is just me changing. Into someone, who you'll lose interest in eventually. because let's face it you probably wouldn't recognize my need for saving till I was on fire getting set ablaze burning you on my way cuz I didn't know what to say couldn't ask for help let myself go crazy on my way to making you hate me.