shameful guilt

the guilts are eating me alive one misconceptions between means and word one seconds too late one too many mistake one of many sins and this one, it's my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault my fault should I grovel to the ground shall I beg for mercy upon the spilled affection too much the guilt and shame eating me alive don't lessen it make it as painful as it is it should be wrong idealism and reality I beg to not be them I wish to be not them and yet, I walk the path of them hate it, kill me, please