shaking

I feel the tension again, My body starts shaking and then I can't controll myself, just want to feel something diffrent again My mind feels like it'll explode with hate and all that weight I can't even think and my heart sinks It feels like it's in the dark rotting with that spark But I don't care about the spark anymore, still sad from before Just want to forget everything, even the good from beginning I don't know what to do just want to assume Assume that I'm good and fine but maybe I'm just an attention seeking swine