shadows and leeches

A showdow has latched onto me one that only i can see one that rips a hole in my soul and shatters it i cant het a homerun no matter how many balls i hit im so close to saying i quit but if i say it outloud people will just think im having a fit no matter how hard i try i cant shake the feeling off like a leech stuck to me but this leech only i can see sucking the blood straight from my heart all i want now is a fresh start a place where the sun always shines and water is always clean i hate to be mean but these shadows and these leeches cant stay i try and try but the exit is so far away just out of reach like low clouds it looks like you can jump and be in the sky but once i tried and all i got was a broken heart if i cant trust the stars and the sky how can i trust anything i got a fresh start but someone came into my lakes and they had leeches someone came into my sky and covered the sun leaving the whole world a shadow now im the leech now im the shadow but i hate it i dont mean to hurt others but they let me into their heart and my leech latches onto them i need to stop it but i dont know how i want it to stop and i want it now