Selfless

I guess for all these past years I have been an option and not your priority.. There was nothing out of ordinary you did for me.. But I saw you crossing your boundaries, sadly not for me.. I am happy for you, from bottom of my heart.. But ..somewhere in the heart , it just aches and I can't heal it.. I somewhat knew what you held for me.. still I pretended to be blind.. I know it would hurt.. and it does... But still I want to see you happy I know that I will still be shamelessly coming to you when you need me knowing that it is hopeless.. Still I will... Is it me being selfless or is that you never saw me the way I saw you even once??