Selfish

I'm tired; I'm tired of being pushed around, I'm tired: Of helping you Of you using me Of none of your promises staying true, Of your selfishness and greed Of taking care of someone I don't have to at all Of killing myself making sure you're fine Of you, when your promises come around again, always dropping the ball Of doing without my wants and needs, just to make sure you have yours Of never having things to myself Of the lies to which I always get bored Of not getting equal help Of you not repaying us Of being hurt by your "family" Of never being able to trust Of never being able to feel like me. At the end of the day, I'm actually happy to say, That I want to be selfish I want things that I have for myself To be used for my own benefit I want to be in good health, But not if it involves putting up with your bs anymore I'm tired of knowing that everytime I go to the store, That I'll never make it through the day with any more that what I already had. I just want things for myself, And is that really so bad? Is it really so awful to wish someone cared for me the way I do for you? Am I so awful for thinking that maybe you could possibly one day care for me that way too? No, I'm not, that's the truth.