self-hatred

Sitting here I don't feel anything or maybe I can't feel anything I have always been someone that is experssionless maybe I was but now I can't tell , I have so many things to say but my mouth seems to not be albe to move the tears in my eyes want to come out but it can't Why you might ask? there are many reason why maybe because I have always felt that I have been trap in a box not a box but a place a dark cold place with no light and no hope of getting out I had hope before but now I don't why I alway ask myself I knew why but I was too afraid I have always been not afraid of myself but afraid people people who made selfish opinions opinions that wasn't put into consederation of how the other person might feel I have always been tired tired of myself, the way I act, they way a talk, walk, and how I stood quietly and let others judge me but not anymore this time I won't let some stupid of opinions bother me because I m who I chose to be and no body can decide that for me